the roots of a wallflower

Guilt

less.

sealegslexi:

thebansteven:

Why are you atheist? I’m not trying to change your mind, but I am curious.

Partly because I think it is pathetic that most people think that their lives are worthless or without purpose without having some form of higher being telling them what to do. Which is why I prefer to think of our existence as, we all have the power to do good and live good lives, just from innate human dignity, but some people don’t choose to do so. I also believe that the complexity and perfect design of the universe, could not have been made on purpose or created by one being, which sounds stupid, because most scientist now believe in a divine plan, I just prefer to think that through evolution most things that don’t fit, will just die off, I also believe the humans are next, if we don’t destroy the world before that.

you are too good

Glass Completely Full

lustinforlife:

So this week we get Wednesday off and my friend Sarah made a bombbbbb observation:

“It’s pretty much a Monday, Friday; Monday Friday week, because we have Monday then Tuesday then no school. Then Thursday then Friday and then the weekend.”

I reallllllly like her way of thinking about it. This week should be alright now. Homecoming is this upcoming weekend too. Sooo much to get done for it still.

This week is going to be great! (:

Just a bit before I start my productive day

Yesterday was a good day.

And it wasn’t one of those days where anything in particular made it good, because I did too pretty bad on a test, just the simple fact that yesterday I was with good people all day long.

Disregarding school, because school is a drag, especially when one of your three best friends isn’t there (not considering the fact that another of the three never is because she goes to school in Idaho). I picked up Andrew for school, because he was in a car accident, and I know how he feels with that. We hung out after school, then picked up his sister, then I drove him home. I ended up staying there for 3 hours, just hanging out, being lazy, and talking. It was probably one of my favorite times I had with him. We looked at old pictures, and I couldn’t remember when exactly we started to become “best friends”, but I didn’t care, just that at that exact moment in time, we were, and that was all that mattered. I love this boy, and I know he’ll see this, and I hope he gets it, because I really do. I would do anything for him, seeing him sad makes me sad, when he’s happy I’m happy. Regardless of what the future brings, he’s always going to be there, and so am I. I have no doubt.

We won a home football game, finally. The cheering of the crowd, standing up the whole time in the student section, everyone was just wonderful. A moment I want to remember. Wearing our “I support the drumline” shirts, Alison and I had a ton of fun, walking over to show the drumline, and then taking a picture with them after. In that moment, I think I actually was enjoying high school, which doesn’t happen too often. I had school spirit, and wasn’t just pretending to. I cared that we were winning, I watched the half-time show, and thought that I couldn’t wait until the next week, the Homecoming game. I hope my best friends make king and queen, even though it isn’t important. I love the feeling I get now when I’m around people. I no longer feel like I am friendless, that people are only friends with me because I’m always around, but that people actually like being around me, people actually enjoy my company. It’s nice. It’s a good feeling.

And last night, I picked up Bryan, we went to Carl’s Jr, then went to get food from Jack in the Box (for their “soy tacos”). We had no idea what to do, so we just drove with no purpose. We decided to go to my house and just hang out, since there was nothing going on last night. We sat on my couch and watched “Return to Neverland” because my room was a mess, and my mom wouldn’t let us in there for that reason, and I can only watch VHS tapes in there. It was simple, just us and a movie. I like him a lot. I don’t even need to explain it anymore. There’s something about him.

I am happy. I get to see Kailey in a few weeks, and I am so excited for that. Instead of just being happy because of my 2/3 best friends and Bry, I’ll have her too. I honestly can’t wait.

I am so happy. Honestly. It may not be every moment of the day, because I do get in my moods, but for the most part, I am happy. I want it to stay.

Now, to start my productive day of actually cleaning my room. Hope everyone has a wonderful day.

Would it be wrong if I told you, I have never wanted to kiss someone more than I want to kiss you right now?

You don’t ever notice how I stare when we’re alone

(via eletheowl)

"Here is a baby with eyes of blue, straight from heaven, right to you. Or - straight from heaven up above, here is a baby for you to love".

“I love us, how we can sit down and think.
I love us, how we can go read books.
I love us, how we can be drunk.
I love us, how we can be high.
I love us, how we can drive with no direction.
I love we are who we are and don’t let anyone, anything, or any obligations get in the way.”

Love, him

Go ahead, keep taking my breath away. I don’t mind one bit.